Perfect Love

"Perfect love desires that every heart it touches will be more alive, more free and more passionate about life than before they met."


This quote has caused more disruption in my life in the past few days then few things ever have.  Lately, in my walk through life I have been operating out a place of fear.  I would be so bold as to say that the fearfulness is quite out of character for me.  Yet, lately is something that has taken root and has begun to dictate my actions and thought life.  Which honestly is so ridiculous because the kindest person I have ever known is the author of my story.  


I have always been a rather brazen person, straight forward, honest, and rarely care what people think of me.  But, I have this deep rooted fear of not being wanted or loved.  This is obviously an issue.  It causes hinderances in relationships with people but most importantly with the father.  If I am so fearful of love how am I to love the father fearlessly? 


I want to be a woman of reckless abandon before Him. I want to waste my life at His feet.  But, if I am too scared to do so, I will never do that.  And the thought of that, is terrifying. 


The good part, the part that is slowly beginning to sink into my heart, is that in this world, I will never encounter perfect love, except in Him. There is no expectation that He cannot meet and there is no thing He could do that could damage me in anyway.  Because to Him, I'm perfect, whole, and wanted.


So perfect love casts out all fear, right? Yes. It takes away all fear and replaces it with the things that my heart yearns for: freedom, passion, and being alive.  These things that sometimes feel fleeting or missing, I receive from a perfect love.  Which is why that quote was like a slap in the face.  He wants me to have it! He wants my heart to be alive and free and passionate! He wants me to have a full and thrilling life, full of adventure and free of inhibitions.  It is my own fear that prohibits this.  When really the reality is all I have to do is nothing.  Let his perfect love wash over me.  His love casts out all fear.




Fearlessly,


AB